We’re beginning month 2 of the quarantine because of COVID-19. All non-essential businesses have closed. I’ve been furloughed from my part-time job, still working my full-time job. I’ve experienced every single emotion known to man during the past month, many coming in all over the course of 24 hours. A roller coaster of emotions and feels.
I’m home alone, my boyfriend Bryan is at his home (his parents home), although we do see each other on occasion. I think my 4 cats and 1 dog are completely over me being home at this point, and probably think I’ve been laid off for good.
We still don’t know when things will open back up, although there are talks to slowly open businesses. One thing that’s really hit me and made me the most – upset? – during this is that my first 6 week alignment for my braces was due to be April 28th. Because my orthodontist has been closed, they’ve pushed all the appointments back. So my new appointment is June 10th, meaning I will have these same wires/brackets for 12 weeks without being seen. I’ll post more in my braces update later this week about some challenges I’ve had, so be on the lookout for that.
Most of my worry, fear, and anxiety around this whole situation has mostly faded and I’ve come to the point where I’m accepting of everything. Yes, it completely sucks. Yes, I fear for essential workers, like my sister who is a Pharmacist in a hospital who has to rotate two weeks in the hospital and then two weeks at home. I worry for my parents, who have a host of pre-existing conditions that would truly harm them if they caught this virus.
But I’m grateful. I’m grateful because I’ve spent more time at home, cleaning, organizing, purging and making my space somewhere I love, not feel confined by. I’m grateful I’ve been able to connect and love on friends virtually. I’m grateful that my full-time job has poured so much money, time and energy in getting everyone set up to work from home, and there has been so much patience from everyone on conference calls and scheduling work life around it all.
I’ve had the time to enjoy playing one of my favorite games of all time, Animal Crossing. I’ve been able to dive into personal growth like reading some books I’ve had on the list (currently: Chasing The Bright Side by Jess Ekstrom) and doing the work in the #Next90Challenge.
I don’t know what the next month will bring. I don’t know how many more people will die from this virus. I don’t know how the stock market will respond, how local businesses will continue or open back up. I don’t know if our federal government will act like adults and have actual compassion for health care workers and those that are dying.
I don’t know.
But I do know I’ll keep doing my part, staying home, loving on those who need it.